Why I Left Colorado ~ A Decision the Cards Made Before I Did

I want to talk about the move.

Not the logistics of it – the boxes, the drive, the way you have to leave a place before you understand what it was to you. I want to talk about the months before it, when I already knew and was still pretending I didn’t.

Colorado was good to me in the ways that places can be good to you. The mountains were real. The altitude changed something in the way I thought. My practice deepened there in the specific way that happens when you have enough space and enough silence – there was room for it to expand into. But somewhere in the middle of 2025, something started to shift.

Sekhmet ~ She Who Is Powerful ~ A Guide to the Eye of Ra and the Lady of Flame

The desert heat is not metaphor. It is her breath.She comes with the sun at its most brutal. The white, annihilating noon of the Egyptian summer when the sand radiates upward and the air itself seems to burn and there is nowhere to hide and nothing to do but submit to it. She comes with the simoom, the poison wind that moves across the desert like a living thing, carrying plague and fever and the smell of something ancient and without mercy. She comes when the lioness bursts from the reeds at the watering hole, and the world reduces itself, in a single shocked instant, to the irreducible fact of power.

The World’s Oldest Known Shaman

She was about forty-five years old when she died, which was old for her time. She had lived long enough to become someone her community could not easily replace. We know this because of the way they buried her.

Not the way they buried hunters, or warriors, or the politically powerful. Those burials have their own grammar: weapons, tools, the markers of a role that others could step into after the person was gone.

Her burial was different. Her burial was built around her specifically, around what she was and what she had done and what she continued to be, in some understanding her community held, after death.

What is a Grimoire?

Step into any witchcraft tradition, any occult lineage, any corner of the magical world, and you will find it: a book. Not just any book, but the book – the one written in candlelight, filled with spells and symbols, secrets and ceremonies, the whispered knowledge of those who came before. This is the grimoire.

The word itself carries weight. Derived from the Old French grammaire, meaning grammar. The structured language of learning. The grimoire was once synonymous with any book of occult knowledge. Over centuries, it evolved into something far more intimate: a personal repository of magical practice, a map of one practitioner’s journey through the unseen world.

To hold a grimoire is to hold a record of transformation.